Falling head over heels,
thought i knew how it feels,
but with you
its like the first day
of my life.

Wednesday, January 18, 2006
8:36 pm ♥ missinyoo.


yeeyaw. man. i feel kinda down today. hmm, pms? whatever. :D
im like, so depressed today. :P
altho andrea, jialin and celine came over and dolled up. makep doesnt make me happy anymore.

according to the astrowatch 2006.. i should find my happiness by learning to see things in a different light and learn to accept things as they are. also, i should refuse to let ppl bully me or sweet talk me into sacrificing my own time to help them out with whatever they need. hmm, pretty true. im like doing that ALL THE TIME can? :P kays, more. lastly, i need know that i cannot do EVERYTHING to please EVERYONE. OH GAWD. so true. =.= okays anyway. i think im pleasing ppl too much too. haha. :P happiness is not a destination. its the WAY. :)

okays, making no sense. anyway. i love looking at the raindrops when its raining. :) i dont know why kays. it ust fascinates me when i think of the raindrops. look, they've travelled so far just to reach the ground lah. kays, im bad at explaining. its like, wow. when you think of the raindrops that rise up to the skies (thru evaporation) and fall as rain during.. uhh, rain... dont you feel like, wow lah. man. i sooo wanna be a raindrop in my next life. altho it might be short (DUH).. i get to rise up to the skies.. altho i will fall to the ground eventually.. i gained experiences and stuffs on the way.. making my existance worthwhile.. oh gawd. why am i like so whimsy whimsy today? :x blehh.

sigh. i dont know. i suddenly realised that my existance is nothing as compared to those who really make a difference in other people's life. i always thought that i have the ability to change someone.. in any means. i realised im like nothing- those that die today and no one would even notice my non-existance the next day. i know im like that. i know im so so so insignificant. okays, i know i shouldnt feel so belittled or whatsoever, but sorry. i just cant. >.<

sigh. i dont know what i want in life. what do i wanna be in the future? what are the courses i should take in the future when i go to... poly? or is it gonna be jc? what do i expect in life? im afraid i cant answer these questions. i seriously have no idea. man, am i failure?

sigh. im gonna end here. bye. :)