Falling head over heels,
thought i knew how it feels,
but with you
its like the first day
of my life.

Wednesday, March 08, 2006
9:28 pm ♥ fck putao.


i think ive straightened out my thoughts. indeed.. an "ordeal" really changes a person.
well at least i think that IT changed me. haha. was thinking ALOT about my regrets today. and what if i didnt do what i did? things would be so so so different. right? (DUH.)

Like.. for example. Uhhs, which one shd i use eh? AHH. Lemme use this one. What wld happen if i didnt post that shit on her? as in, those shit about them? I guess things would be so much different now. uhs, we MIGHT remain as good friends? or become closer friends? i dont know. Fck those who wanna say "blah blah.. its no use regretting now since what happened has already happened". Wait till you accidentally kill someone and i'd try telling you that. HAHA. :) Hmm, now im trying to make myself the best that i could be.

Yah, i should seriously start apologising SINCERELY to those that I REALLY WRONGED. Fck, there's only TWO in my list. Yah, sorry is the hardest word to say. Dun think so. Realising your mistake and wanting to apologise sincerely is the hardest thing to do. Forgiveness? Heck. As long as i know that i did my "best" and its a load off my chest.. forgiveness isnt too much of a problem alr lah. Look! I sound nice right! (YAH, get a life. =.=) Hah, anyway. I should try and be nice! Try and be nice again. Dont flare up just because of some lil matters. Try and dont think too much. Try to be as caring as possible. Try to accomodate my friend as much as possible. Try to be the best that i can be to everyone. Cause thats what i want my friend to treat me- Liking me for who i am! :) Meep, im serious. I know its hard but i'd try! ID TRY OKAY. IM SERIOUS. So yeah. Look out for my change alr! :) Doopsie, i think i'll start by smiling. Hmm, smiling is a kind gesture right? LOL. Yeah, SMILE and SAY HI (SINCERELY, not for the sake of saying HI) to all my friends that i meet on my way. That MAY make someone's day! Who knows, bleh! :D

So i was thinking. Since im facing some poop now, should i NOT let history repeat itself and apologise (FOR SOMETHING THAT I DIDNT DO WRONG?! refer to post YESTERDAY). Eh, i think im contradicting myself. Hmm, talk about double personality. Tsk! Hmm, nvm.

Hmm. Enough. Went luch with bernice and rachel today. and while rachel went over to posb to dump her cheque.. we sorta talked about it. Dont wish to elaborate in case it gets misunderstood again. Hmm, i think i'm gonna make that "Remember, if you can bitch about me in your group, i too can talk about you in my blog. But i choose not to (anymore). Dont waste your time talking about others behind their backs. Because you can then be sure they're talking about you too. And no girl wants that. :) Hold your head high and don't stoop to their level. They'll eventually get bored and move on. Yeah!" thing as my siggie. So that i can remember this ALWAYS! :)

So.. time to go do up my blogskin. Im getting SICK of this one!
Anyway, is my new banner nice? xD

Man, make me happy and tell me it is. :D

HAHA.
Goodnight people. Sweetdreams! ^^