Falling head over heels,
thought i knew how it feels,
but with you
its like the first day
of my life.

Tuesday, June 27, 2006
9:34 pm ♥


oh man. why do i always stumble upon blogs that blog about.. err sad stuff huh.
and ohsoamazingly ill like feel so damn sad like so one's business (oh well it is).
when it doesnt concern me at all?

i dont know. i think im waaaay too emotional.. or what some people call crybaby.
whatever. seriously. i think im gonna start emoin and bah i dont like emoin lol.
i dont know. okayes the blog i just read goes like this.
it talked about this guy's life. i think he's very ke lian.
he made me realise how fortunate (???) i am.
with both my parents alive.

caring for me (altho i dont really feel it).
giving me a second thought whenever i go "i dont feel the warmth in this family".
making me look at my mum (LOL) when she walks pass me wonderin if im nuts staring at her then turning back to look at the computer screen crying whitle typing this.
missing my dad and wondering how hes doing in malaysia.
if work's hard for him. if he had eaten. if he is sleeping well now. how things are gonna turn out for him tomorrow.
if tomorrow's gonna be another good day.
if mum has money to give me tmr.
and if she does if theres money for herself.
how shes managing the stress and all.

so much. so so so much.
its like.. this guy can write lah. its like so damn powerful can.

深深地触动了我。

i just wanna say this (cos i know my mum sometimes read my blog, and i wonder if she understands what im writing about but well she will understand this one)..

i love you mom. and dad.
i appreciate everything youve done for me.
i know you care for me alot.
im sorry if i did anything to hurt you all.
okayes i will try to change.
i will care for you all.
i will not switch on the aircon when my frens drop by.
i will switch off the comp when ive used it for 1 hour.
i will strive hard and pass my maths.
i will learn to care and share.
i will not quarrel with ah boy.
i will sms lesser and stop talking on the phone for 1million hours.
i will stop bugging you for N80 and be contended with N70.
i will download music and dont pester you to buy cds for me. [ OOPS. ]
i will reach home by 6 everyday and stop making you worry.
i will save money.

i will change.

(:

OMGYM im writing this kinda stuff in my blog.
im disgusting. eeeee.