Sunday, September 17, 2006
9:03 pm ♥ what would it be like. if it was me.
met up with vanessa earlier today before going for it.. hmm.
went to eat lunch that too.. and we were supposed to reach sch by like 1 but we kinda left by 1 so there isnt enuf time for us to get on the bus..
so we cabbed down to mandai with weiling. yupps.
cab fare totalled to $17. not ex.. kind of.
anyways.
the atmosphere was like so tense when we reached.
proceeded to the hall for some memorial service where almost everyone was in tears..
gosh i couldnt help it but to cry too. its just like kind of saddening to see this kinda things.
i kinda cried the most after i placed my flower there.. you just cant help it.
altho i didnt really see him. but its like.. like that lah.
was thinking why i didnt like get to know him or what.you know. you will have frens from other class de mah.not even those hi bye kind. but why.things got even worse when we went into the viewing hall..
you can hear all his relatives crying so hard and stuffs.
i dont know. its just. like that. like that.
was quite in a daze after coming out. its like.. alot of "huhs" in my mind lah.
yah.
i was thinking ( dont blame me for thinking too much.. =[ )
what would his family think during dinner time?
if he had the habit of saying mom dad bro eat before they eat and things like that?
but now staring into the empty seat and extra pair of chopsticks?
what would they think when its time to wake him up in the morning?
walking to the room, turning off the lights only to know that
what they saw was an empty bed?
and what would they think when they go to the restaurant they frequent?
ordering the food they used to.. only to know that no one would be eating it anymore?
i dont mean to like.. what but thats just what that comes to my mind lah.
i seriously cant imagine what its like if it was me.
how would my parents feel?
their daughter who used to laugh like mad while watch those taiwanese variety shows.now hearing only the deafening silence?their daughter who used to take an extra share whenever there was seaweed.now a full packet on the table?their daughter who used to run around the house chasing after the cat.now the cat walking around aimelessly at home?i shudder at the thought of it.
thankfully they still had my brother. or else. i dont know how theyre gonna face it.
oh no. its not the right time to think about it.
anyways.
its like. everyone's thinking about their death now like what it is gonna happen if it was them.
something like that. ive already planned. just. in case.
i dont know lah.
ive lost all my mood to study and things like that.
suddenly thinking.. prelims aint so important suddenly.
we wont make it to first 3 months anyway.
no. i must think positively.
i will try to pia.
2 more months.
lastly i just wanna say.
i'd miss him when im walking the stairs back to class after recess. like coming up to class 5 mins earlier.
seeing malcolm and samuel walking along the corridor back to their class.
i know alot of people have already said this. but im gonna say it anyway.
rest in peace samuel. 1990-2006.
rest, in peace.
Sunday, September 17, 2006
9:03 pm ♥ what would it be like. if it was me.
met up with vanessa earlier today before going for it.. hmm.
went to eat lunch that too.. and we were supposed to reach sch by like 1 but we kinda left by 1 so there isnt enuf time for us to get on the bus..
so we cabbed down to mandai with weiling. yupps.
cab fare totalled to $17. not ex.. kind of.
anyways.
the atmosphere was like so tense when we reached.
proceeded to the hall for some memorial service where almost everyone was in tears..
gosh i couldnt help it but to cry too. its just like kind of saddening to see this kinda things.
i kinda cried the most after i placed my flower there.. you just cant help it.
altho i didnt really see him. but its like.. like that lah.
was thinking why i didnt like get to know him or what.you know. you will have frens from other class de mah.not even those hi bye kind. but why.things got even worse when we went into the viewing hall..
you can hear all his relatives crying so hard and stuffs.
i dont know. its just. like that. like that.
was quite in a daze after coming out. its like.. alot of "huhs" in my mind lah.
yah.
i was thinking ( dont blame me for thinking too much.. =[ )
what would his family think during dinner time?
if he had the habit of saying mom dad bro eat before they eat and things like that?
but now staring into the empty seat and extra pair of chopsticks?
what would they think when its time to wake him up in the morning?
walking to the room, turning off the lights only to know that
what they saw was an empty bed?
and what would they think when they go to the restaurant they frequent?
ordering the food they used to.. only to know that no one would be eating it anymore?
i dont mean to like.. what but thats just what that comes to my mind lah.
i seriously cant imagine what its like if it was me.
how would my parents feel?
their daughter who used to laugh like mad while watch those taiwanese variety shows.now hearing only the deafening silence?their daughter who used to take an extra share whenever there was seaweed.now a full packet on the table?their daughter who used to run around the house chasing after the cat.now the cat walking around aimelessly at home?i shudder at the thought of it.
thankfully they still had my brother. or else. i dont know how theyre gonna face it.
oh no. its not the right time to think about it.
anyways.
its like. everyone's thinking about their death now like what it is gonna happen if it was them.
something like that. ive already planned. just. in case.
i dont know lah.
ive lost all my mood to study and things like that.
suddenly thinking.. prelims aint so important suddenly.
we wont make it to first 3 months anyway.
no. i must think positively.
i will try to pia.
2 more months.
lastly i just wanna say.
i'd miss him when im walking the stairs back to class after recess. like coming up to class 5 mins earlier.
seeing malcolm and samuel walking along the corridor back to their class.
i know alot of people have already said this. but im gonna say it anyway.
rest in peace samuel. 1990-2006.
rest, in peace.
