Falling head over heels,
thought i knew how it feels,
but with you
its like the first day
of my life.

Tuesday, May 15, 2007
9:48 pm ♥ OH DAMNNNNNN. :P


OH what the hell. :(
screwed up day, screwed up homework, screwed up life, screwed up everything.
perhaps this is the worst day of my life. NOT anymore. :)

some asshole in school thought i liked him and whatever,
then he kinda tried to like piss me or something,
but its okay, i dont really bother. (i try to not let this affect me.)
he kinda succeeded, i think. and oh this proves that i have bad taste.
im thankful i saw that side (of him), im thankful that i finally got over.
thanks for making me cry. ive been bottling this up for so long (not very long, but thats not the point)!
so long, i think im immuned already.

[EDIT]
OH OH oh no i wrote all these while i was crying last night,
so i forgot to elaborate.
i hope all those above wont make me sound like some spoilt brat trying hard to get attention.
HAHA!

Its like this.
I still remember during orientation luh, i was checking people out in class during the game thing.
then sheena said this guy in grey was hot (he's from another course, but there's this grey shirt guy in our class so i kinda mistook) but looks damn beng, very sad but whatever, so anyway i (think im crazy, but nevermind) shouted like, EH, GREY SHIRT GUY! i dont know if he/another he heard but haha that was so crazy. :D

and completely irrelevant from the topic. HAAAAAAAAAAAA.

okay back.
actually its like, second week of school, i started hanging out with the girls, i check out guys in class, i think dragon is cute, i told the girls, they told me about this term eye-candy (i was completely oblivious to this term before that), i made him my eye-candy (still rather vague about what eye-candy really means), i started like joking about it myself, they started joking about it, we joked about it together, i invented lame cheers like LQHQSSFBQC, it got kinda known to the whole class, people started calling my name when they saw him (its supposed to be funny), then somehow he thinks that i like him, he like started like ignoring (from what i see, it seems like that) and its kinda sad that all this has to happen just because its funny.

yeah yeah, eye candy, funny.
i mean, its kinda funny in the beginning.
but when people kept repeating and saying it so many times, it becomes irritating.
i was paper-talking to liping, then she told me this i found it soooo true.
有时真的不要再讲了，as 笑话， ok, but 不要一直讲 ，我很累。
right. really. im tired of all this. really.
thankfully its coming to an end.

after all this (its only the fifth week of school, hell.)
i realised.
i lost friendship and so many other things. (i suppose we wont talk anymore, since i think he's quite bastard haha. my girls agree with me! HAHAHAHA "not funny leh".)
then again, we'll be classmates for one year so its not very nice to say this. HAHA!

thats all. :)
time to go school and meet girlies for brekkie!
[/EDIT]

woweeeeee.
no worries, i'll get back to my usual self in no time. (:
nothing can bring me down! at least not things like this.
Y~E~A~H!

-removed-

EDITED!
suddenly i feel family problems should not be written on my blog.
its not private afterall. :)

if you know me and know whats going on,
what should i do? someone please tell me how.

no psychiatrists please,
its expensive.

okay. not very funny. HA! bye. :)